About me

Hollywood is lovingly referred to as The Dream Factory, to me it looks, smells and feels more like a nightmare. I scratched that shiny surface looking for imperfections for a long time, only to find nothing at all. The traces of shattered illusions and broken dreams always seem to wash away so quickly, like dirt from the streets during heavy rainfalls.

Last winter I escaped from the plastic and landed in New York where my mother has an apartment, paid for with blood money (or so I'm told) and filled with precious artifacts from a past life. Here I feel safer amidst her designer dresses and frayed books, where the memories of a childhood crush no longer seem so intrusive. I sometimes dream of burning forests along deserted roads where we're driving in the middle of the night, me and the father I lost when I was 12 and still afraid of the dark.


  1. Hi! I'm Crystal, I appreciate you taking the time to stop by and read my blog and for commenting as well!

    I just read a few post here on your blog and about your mother and your father as well. First of all, I'm really sorry to hear about the loss of your father. I guess you can say, I lost one of my dad's at the age of 12 not long after I lost my sister. He's the man who's name is on my birth certificate and even though he never really did much for me or my mom, he still did more than my biological father ever thought about doing. He taught me how to tie my shoe and he showed up for my 8th birthday when my mom and my sister were at the hospital.

    I definitely can understand your feelings and your emotions you've portrayed here and to some extent, I can relate and please know that I try not to judge anyone, ever! So no worries there.

    I wish I could offer you some ray of hope, some ounce of promise but honestly I doubt that it would help you because it never helped me. I never could allow myself to believe or hope for anything better until something happened that opened my eyes. It changed my whole life. Your time will come too.

    Hope you don't mind me following you.. not that it will make a big difference.. I see you have tons of followers! Congrats and take care!

  2. Your writing is amazing and inspirational...thank you.


  3. I lived in the UK for two years and the title of your blog (I just clicked on the link 'Is it true?') reminds me of a similar story I heard from a friend of a friend about his Mom and certain famous singer from Wales from the Elvis era that is still active today.

  4. I am literally obsessed with the way you describe things and the beautiful way you write. You need to write a book!!! Sounds mad but I really think you could get published - pretty easily too. You have a talent for telling stories.

    HANNAH †


  5. I used to live in California and felt it was so superficial too :( no soul to the place.

  6. fascinating blog! Never seen anything like it!
    Oh and thanks for your sweet comment:)


  7. Love your blog and photos. Love the stories of the city-



  8. Hi Avy, your picture is really nice! thank you so much for your comment and for passing by. I wish you all the best Avy, may all your loving dreams come true. you seem like a nice person, you deserve the best. remember that. keep dreaming! :) Now is the time, our dreams are coming to life :) Trust me sister. Thank you so much love.

  9. Avy, thank you so much for stopping by my blog. I just read your page and I love the way you write, I can only imagine how beautiful it is to hear you speak.

    Love and Light sister

    xoxo HoneyGem

  10. Awesome Blog of yours!!!, love the photos and the way you express yourself here!!..now I am following you!!;)
    Merry Xmas and all the best!!
    Maria aka Wiccana

  11. Your writing is perfection.

  12. Hi! *grins*

    Stumbled upon your blog, intrigued, and fell in love. Your writing is gorgeous, just so you know.

  13. Hi, thanks for dropping by my blog! I love yours, btw. I think your writing is beautiful and I love your photographs as well.


  14. Love your writing! I followed you! follow back? :) xxx

  15. I love your writing! So beautiful and intriguing. You have me hooked and I want to read more. I'm glad you stopped by my blog {and thank you for your kind words!} so we can get to know each other better. Can't wait to read more!

    Following you on GFC and Bloglovin :)

  16. Thank you for commenting on my blog Avy. Your posts are so well written, and interesting. Followed :)
    Have a lovely weekend x

  17. Hi Avy, thanks for the comment on my blog! Am loving yours, it's unlike any I've come across before.
    Following you on GFC, would love for you to follow me back xx

  18. Thank you for your gutsy and honest writings. We have the same father I'm afraid. One who couldn't see any reason to hold the line any longer and escaped through a back door. Do you think they keep a watchful eye on us?

  19. Hi thanks for commenting on my blog - fyi the squirrel ended up killing itself somehow in the cage, it was a sad day =/ but I followed! Great blog, awesome reading. Love the layout too :)


  20. I just want to meet you. You are my kind of human.

  21. Your words touch me.

  22. this is so amazing! I totally love your writing.

  23. Heylo! Thanks for leaving a sweet comment on my blog. :) Your posts are really interesting too, and I looove your photos! <3 I followed you, as you asked. Mind following me back as well? Thankyou! xx


  24. I fell in love with your Blog!
    What do you think about Europe?

    Check out my blog!
    XX Chulie

  25. thank you for stopping by my blog :)

    I love the way you write, kinda like writing a novel.

    Hope all is well

    <3 iam

  26. I really love your writings, I enjoy it a lot and it inspires me to be creative and imaginative. What I'm sad is that the stories you tell are true and you lived with those feelings/emotions :( I hope the future will have you smiling and hoping that life always gives us chances to choose. Choose to be sad or to be sad but strong and brave enough to share it with the world :)

    Best Wishes,

  27. You are an inspiration. I love your style of writing. Bold and beautiful. I am trying to catch up to all of your posts until now.
    Following you.

    I am a new blogger and I would love if you could have a peek at my blog too and let me know, how I am doing.
    Lots of love

  28. Holy God I just found your blog and I am in love. Your words are so haunting and so honest. I cannot cannot CANNOT wait to read more. You are so beautiful.

    Tightrope to the Sun

  29. Your blog is amazing. Here from you soon. itsjustprecious.blogspot.com

  30. I just found out about your blog. I have to say... it's inspiring. It's true, it's so personal and still vague enough to keep me interested and I feel like I want to be here for you. You are awesome. That's what I think =)
    Marta, from Portugal*


  31. Thanks for stopping by my blog and for your comment. I really love the city too. It took me a while to adjust, but even with the cold, I still love the energy here.

    Your writing is beautiful.



  32. hey Avy! my gratitude to have graced my blog of your presence. Your writings are beautiful. will hang out here from time to time. You take care!


  33. I love your writing! And thanks for stopping by my blog. Yours is very interesting. Look forward to reading some posts.

    ~India or Tudda Pudda ^___________^

  34. I came across this blog about year ago though something reminded me of it today. It was something stupid, and it seemed to evoke an emotional déjà vu. Now this place took a while to finally find (not reading much online) but here I am again, feeling a sentimental melancholy once more. Thanks for the ride.

  35. I came across this blog about year ago though something reminded me of it today. It was something stupid, and it seemed to evoke an emotional déjà vu. Now this place took a while to finally find (not reading much online) but here I am again, feeling a sentimental melancholy once more. Thanks for the ride.