Sunday, November 1, 2015

All I want is you

For Halloween we're invited to a party in Montmartre, friends from his Sorbonne class that I've never even heard of. He needs me to dress up as the most intimidating thing imaginable: "An H&M girl".

We're on our way out when l tell him I can't be around people. It comes over me like vertigo, he doesn't ask why and I think I love him for it. I turn off the lights in his bedroom and pretend he's never coming back. If he died I'd have nothing.

I fall asleep some time after midnight and dream about motorways before he wakes me with his Champagne breath on my cold cheek. His clothes smell of women's perfume, soft, deep ruby lipstick marks on the collar of his Givenchy shirt (the one with the two black stars). He lies down beside me and puts his hand between my legs where I'm still warm.

If I died he'd have nothing.






15 comments:

  1. Everyone we've ever met is always with us. Even when they're gone, the impressions people leave in our hearts and minds never completely fade.

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  2. I understand this Avy... I used to think I was SO lucky to have my 'D' but it ended up he was the lucky one to have me....

    Henry is lucky to have you xox ♡

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  3. the goths at my mall still intimidate me, i want them to accept me so bad but i don't have the right lunchpail. i once told someone i was close to that i had fallen in codependency with her, she said she never really believed in true love but she did believe in true codependence. after a fancy steak lunch at the steakhouse, we shopped together for lunchpails...

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  4. H&M girl for Halloween, and I'm H&M girl all the time hahaha...
    I've missed your posts!
    xx
    http://littlemisstwiggy.blogspot.hr/2015/10/autumn.html

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  5. So are you something to each other or everything?

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  6. I hope people see the real value in each of us.
    Beautifully written as usual.

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  7. Your posts are always so dramatic and awesome, and I can't help but love them!

    Your writing is flawless, and I get you.

    Amy;
    Little Moon Elephant

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  8. so nostalgic but beautiful! <3
    http://coeursdefoxes.blogspot.com/

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  9. Beautifully written. I love how you said If he died I'd have nothing and ended it with If I died he'd have nothing.
    xx
    www.junewantsitall.com

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