Saturday, February 22, 2014

Achilles to his Paris

It strikes me sometimes that I know nothing about him, just as much as he tells me unless I ask. I think he wants me to but instead I secretly collect fragments from the little things I find in his presence. When he leaves I put them together in my mind, adding the missing details from what I imagine would be true (or exciting).

I know he comes from old money, he knows about my Russian heritage but not that I faked my grandfather's name when he asked. It's our frail balance of terror, the secrets we keep from each other like nuclear arms.

I sometimes want to hurt him just to see what it does to him, to see what he could do to me if he needed to. It's so calm around here, a looming silence that penetrates the paper walls like arrows.
















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39 comments:

  1. Hello from Spain: sometimes it's better not to know. Keep in touch

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  2. it's strange how people leave these gaps inbetween each other -- I do the same

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  3. He's already hurting. Those are red herrings, not fragments.

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  4. Your story is the most intriguing. No matter how many gaps or passages I miss, I'm still captivated every time I tune back in xxx

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  5. I feel the rest shouldn't matter.
    If it matters to you though, expect the same.

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  6. Love these photos. They feel so dreamlike.

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  7. <3
    http://littlemisstwiggy.blogspot.com/2014/02/little-lady.html

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  8. Avy... I think this is how I might be in the future.. I was so opened with him and look where that got me... now I am not sure I will ever be that opened with anyone again... you enthrall me with your writing... I read it over twice and wonder if I get all the meaning... I sometimes fill in the gaps of your story too...

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  9. Those silences.... i know them

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  10. Hauntingly brilliant.
    you want to hurt him, but may i say, it seems he is already hurting, and you as well. Maybe not from each other, but together, it is distant and looming.

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  11. It's been a while since I stopped by and I have missed your words Avy.

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  12. I believe it takes a lifetime to truly know a person.. Sometimes that gap we have with someone prevents a heartache.. I wish happiness for you and Henry <3

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  13. damn this penetrates far inside me~

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  14. Silence and thoughts. And nocturnal photos. Well done!

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  15. He really is intriguing, your a lovely storyteller Avy.
    RosalieJayne

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  16. people are made up of secrets

    http://thepersephonecomplex.blogspot.co.uk/

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  17. I definitely believe people are full of secrets, there are so many things I wish I could just unknow.

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  18. thank you for checking out my blog <3
    Yours is lovely, I'm following you now via GFC.
    It'd be great to stay in youch (:

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  19. It is really fascinating how little we often know about those around us. Is it because we make false assumptions and feel confident in them? Is it what makes us stop looking and searching.

    I could call myself a perceptive person. Quite often I know more about people then I would like to know, at times it even makes me unforgettable. When people tell me their secrets, I refrain from telling them I already know them...yet sometimes I'm so blind when it comes to those I love or claim to love...

    You see your text has made me think....I really adore that final sentence. I know that feeling. Sometimes when I like awake at night I have the feeling like the silence is pressing on me.

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  20. I love these pictures, so good

    http://rosalindis.blogspot.com.es/

    xx

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  21. Great photos!

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  22. great photos!
    www.sandicious.blogspot.com

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  23. I love your writing and your pictures. Very raw.

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  24. probably one of the best things i've read in a while: I think he wants me to but instead I secretly collect fragments from the little things I find in his presence. When he leaves I put them together in my mind, adding the missing details from what I imagine would be true (or exciting).
    brilliance x
    www.vicariousLA.com

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  25. You are most talented in writing! Please take care of you that he doesn´t hurt you ...

    xx from Bavaria/Germany, Rena

    www.dressedwithsoul.blogspot.de

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  26. love these photos! followed! :)

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  27. Love these pictures!
    This is a really great post :)

    Kendra
    xx

    Blog: Stolen Inspiration
    Instagram: KendraAlexandra
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  28. Lovely post! it is a pleasure to come by your blog!
    kisses from Miami,
    Borka
    www.chicfashionworld.com

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  29. maybe it's the mystery that's keeping you there xx


    dreaming is believing

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