Hollywood is sometimes referred to as The Dream Factory, but to me it looks, smells and feels more like a nightmare. I've scratched the shiny surface looking for imperfections for as long as I can remember, only to find nothing at all. The traces of shattered illusions and broken dreams always seem to wash away so quickly, like dirt from the streets during heavy rainfalls.
This winter I escaped from the plastic and landed in New York where my mother has an apartment, paid for with blood money (or so I'm told) and filled with precious artifacts from a past life. Here I feel safer amidst designer dresses and frayed books, where the memories of a childhood crush no longer seem so intrusive. I sometimes dream of burning forests along deserted roads where we're driving in the middle of the night, me and the father I lost when I was 12 and still afraid of the dark.

Hi! I'm Crystal, I appreciate you taking the time to stop by and read my blog and for commenting as well!
ReplyDeleteI just read a few post here on your blog and about your mother and your father as well. First of all, I'm really sorry to hear about the loss of your father. I guess you can say, I lost one of my dad's at the age of 12 not long after I lost my sister. He's the man who's name is on my birth certificate and even though he never really did much for me or my mom, he still did more than my biological father ever thought about doing. He taught me how to tie my shoe and he showed up for my 8th birthday when my mom and my sister were at the hospital.
I definitely can understand your feelings and your emotions you've portrayed here and to some extent, I can relate and please know that I try not to judge anyone, ever! So no worries there.
I wish I could offer you some ray of hope, some ounce of promise but honestly I doubt that it would help you because it never helped me. I never could allow myself to believe or hope for anything better until something happened that opened my eyes. It changed my whole life. Your time will come too.
Hope you don't mind me following you.. not that it will make a big difference.. I see you have tons of followers! Congrats and take care!
Your writing is amazing and inspirational...thank you.
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I lived in the UK for two years and the title of your blog (I just clicked on the link 'Is it true?') reminds me of a similar story I heard from a friend of a friend about his Mom and certain famous singer from Wales from the Elvis era that is still active today.
ReplyDeleteI am literally obsessed with the way you describe things and the beautiful way you write. You need to write a book!!! Sounds mad but I really think you could get published - pretty easily too. You have a talent for telling stories.
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I used to live in California and felt it was so superficial too :( no soul to the place.
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Hi Avy, your picture is really nice! thank you so much for your comment and for passing by. I wish you all the best Avy, may all your loving dreams come true. you seem like a nice person, you deserve the best. remember that. keep dreaming! :) Now is the time, our dreams are coming to life :) Trust me sister. Thank you so much love.
ReplyDeleteAvy, thank you so much for stopping by my blog. I just read your page and I love the way you write, I can only imagine how beautiful it is to hear you speak.
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Your writing is perfection.
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Hi, thanks for dropping by my blog! I love yours, btw. I think your writing is beautiful and I love your photographs as well.
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Love your writing! I followed you! follow back? :) xxx
ReplyDeleteI love your writing! So beautiful and intriguing. You have me hooked and I want to read more. I'm glad you stopped by my blog {and thank you for your kind words!} so we can get to know each other better. Can't wait to read more!
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Thank you for commenting on my blog Avy. Your posts are so well written, and interesting. Followed :)
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Hi Avy, thanks for the comment on my blog! Am loving yours, it's unlike any I've come across before.
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Thank you for your gutsy and honest writings. We have the same father I'm afraid. One who couldn't see any reason to hold the line any longer and escaped through a back door. Do you think they keep a watchful eye on us?
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