I remember people telling me that if you can't have what you want then you must want what you have. I remember them saying that not everything is possible, and that certain duties towards others will always be more important than what you wish for yourself. I'm a non-believer, I don't count on a afterlife and second chances, I've always known that there is a place where I want to go and spend my life - this life - for the sake of myself and my own happiness in this world. A place where I feel at home more than anywhere else, where I don't have to pretend to be something I'm not, a place where I can breathe more easily and where I don't spend every minute of every day wanting to run away from invisible but suffocating oppressions. That place is New York.