His absence is physical more than anything, I made space for other memories to form while I'm away, yet I can't stop myself from wondering what he will do to me eventually. Will I even see him again, if I ever go back to Paris? Will he spend months tracking me down, just so he can hurt me the way I deserve to be hurt?
I thought that leaving him like this would make me feel something but it doesn't, not even the fear excites me, not just yet. Maybe if I see him again I'll know, I want to see him again, I need to see him. I need to see him again. I do.
You write so beautifully, Avy. Emotionally. Love the David Bowie reference in your title.
ReplyDeleteIt's late, but I hope you were able to enjoy the holidays. And that 2016 treats you well.
Eve
Edge of Night
There is nothing more liberating than walking away. The fear is real, but the air is so much clearer.
ReplyDeleteYou don't deserve to be hurt. That I know.
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ReplyDeleteI wish I could just pack up and leave.
ReplyDeleteNot on a plane though. Planes are terrifying.
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This was beautiful, yet sad.
ReplyDeleteStay awesome as ever, Avy,
Much love,
Archie <3
Avy, I don't think you deserve to be hurt and I hope if you see him he will understand you needed to leave... You have to do what is right for you xox
ReplyDeleteSometimes, you leave, but you just don't know why you're doing it. Sometimes, there's no other way to protect yourself. xoxo
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there's nothing wrong with making sure.
ReplyDeletei hope the 'just in case to know' works out for you.
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I've been in Florence last November. For some reason I thought of you.
ReplyDeleteYour words are my nightstand book right now.
Marta
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I think eventually you'll feel something, and it will show you that it was all real. x
ReplyDeleteOh, I have spent half my life trying to escape from something and the other half afraid of doing so. How brave you are. You are my girl.
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