Saturday, November 24, 2012

Primavera

Chloe comes home after work on Friday, kicks off her Vera Wang leather boots and collapses theatrically on the kitchen floor. "I think I've made one of the ad men fall in love with me" she sighs. "What did you do this time" I ask but I know it usually doesn't take much. Her Botticellian body in a little black dress is enough for most men.

Whenever someone says they love me I know they're lying. What it means is they love the idea of being in love, it's a form of self-deceit with two potential victims. I haven't said those words to anyone, and I've only really felt it once. He deserves to hear it but now we're a wasteland apart and I'm slowly starting to forget what he looks like.

Tonight we're chaperoning, mother invited Frank for dinner and ordered us to stay home. She's been dancing around the apartment in her purple Alexander McQueen velvet flats since early this morning, the floors smell of lemon and she almost seems happy. That always worries me.







45 comments:

  1. I`m so sorry you still haven`t said I love you to anyone. Wishing you that as soon as possible. I don`t like when people are playing with those words, and don`t take them seriously, but when it`s really a moment for them, the experience after saying them for the first time to someone, is undescribable.

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  2. This is such a great post! So touching!

    I am following you now, hope you`ll follow me back...


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  3. love this post :)
    I like your blog,would You like to follow each other ? just let me know dear :)
    XO MP

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  4. Lovely pics as always ... your words are so touching, and honest. Your blog is always a great place to be in !!!

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  5. When you love someone, you don't have to say it.

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  6. You're too deep a thinker. That's why you aren't at peace with the self.
    Think about it.
    Take Care!

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  7. Your writing is incredible; I can especially relate to the second paragraph.

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  8. Waiting out on the three words could either be the best thing or the worst.

    +To Me It Matters+

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  9. Cool writing!
    Kisses
    Aga

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  10. "love is long suffering. love is kind. It does not envy. It does not boast. It is not proud. it is not rude. it is not self seeking. it is not easily angered. it keeps no record of wrong. it does not delight in evil but rejoices in truth. it bears all things. believes all things. hopes all things. endures all things. love never fails." 1 Corinthians 13:4-8
    Quite a different definition than what our selfishness and self gratifying culture has perverted it to mean don't you think?

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  11. It never takes much. Men are weak creatures.

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  12. The beauty of your blog is painful.

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  13. I think you are right about being in love with the idea of being in love. It seems that my last few relationships haven't been quite that healthy...

    That is a beautiful cathedral in your last photo...

    ~shoes~

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  14. I wish you be love and be loved dear! This is just the greatest feeling in the world. This feeling of totally letting you go together with someone else, to be one, one spirit, one life, with somebody else. To see somebody and think "this is home". Thats what I wish you!
    xx

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  15. Pure FitzGerald again and again. It might be true what you write, it needs to be true. Real life is so dull most of the time for most of the people, and still in all its boreness they hang to it with the same desperation all the same.

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  16. Thanks for your comment on my blog Avy! Your blog name made me do a double take but I'm glad I clicked. You're an amazing writer! I'm totally guilty of being in love with the idea of being in love. It's not any easier on that end of the spectrum. Hope we all figure it out someday ...

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  17. thanks for your comment. oh yes I have to^^ I understand that..I love it to watch fireworks and hear music besides<3
    lovely text..I know what you mean..boys often love the idea of love but don't do love the person. it's so sad.

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  18. One must love oneself before loving someone else!!
    -Lauren
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  19. I really like your blog dear!
    Keep it up, you do it great :)

    XO

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  20. I like your blog! Would you like to follow each other? :)

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  22. Love your voice and style of writing. Want to follow each other? <3

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  23. Hi Avy, you said here you haven't said "I love you" to anyone, but right at the top of this page, just above the Followers box, you said "FOLLOW ME AND I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER ♥ "

    So why do you think so many have followed you ??? :-)

    I think you must be a very loving person then, to love so many so well... for with these words, these images, this blog, you show us love every time, love of life, love of friends, love of sharing.

    It is said, perhaps mistakenly, that the Eskimos have a large number of words for snow, describing many different kinds of snow. It would perhaps be useful if English had more than one word for love; for I think it is maybe not so realistic to have just one word with a "one size fits all" usage for such a huge concept, when there are ever so many, many ways and degrees to love someone or something.

    But you know all that, and I am just blathering... :-)

    May I say I love your writing, without creating any potential victims ?

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  24. you have such an interesting blog! thanks for checking out my blog.
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  25. Your words unsettle me in the best way possible I guess - a cold shiver down the back.

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  26. ooo great post Great blog!!I'm following you immediately..:)Follow me back?:P

    xxx

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  27. everytime someone says it too me i want to run. it feels like a demand, a trade.. And i felt it twice and said it once. but does it exist? is there any true actual representation of the word? or is it like religion? or opium cigarettes?

    i very much like the atmosphere of this, it's subtle but tense.

    xx

    L.

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  28. I love your blog and am definitely following now :)
    Check out mine if you have a spare moment and if you like it, follow back??
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    Andrea xxxx

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  29. Sometimes you just have to take a leap. It's a risk, the greatest gamble you can make but when it's real, he says it and means it or says it without saying it at all it is worth it. And who said love is just about a guy, you love your friends, you love the city..

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  31. Hi, thanx for your comment♥
    I just followed your blog, so you must love me forever:D
    love it here..

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  32. Such a lovely blog,i am more than happy that i found it and now i am following it.Would love if you could follow me back and keep in touch:*
    Kisses!

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  33. Love is such a strong word and can be so vapid at the same time. No one wants a 'love you' that isn't meant with the right intention, but your time will come. xo

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  34. You are hilarious, your posts are everything but ordinary :-) just love it

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  35. Love the photos!
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    S xx

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  36. Amazing post dear! Love your style!
    Following you on Bloglovin! Hope you'll follow me back! <3

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  37. hi hun,
    I really like your blog and your style..so nice!
    New follower there,
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  38. Hi dear! Nice space!
    I follow your blog,! Hope you do the same :-)
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