Friday, September 28, 2012

In the gray

Mother doesn't invite me along to her parties anymore. She dresses up and puts on her make-up behind closed doors, then tries to sneak out so I won't notice. I caught her once in the hallway on a Saturday night. "I'm just going to the movies" she said but the white mink coat, Rouge Allure Luminous Satin lips and telescopic mascara lashes gave her away.

I'm alone tonight. Mother carelessly forgot to hide her invitation to a fundraising event at The Bowery and Chloe is in Chicago with the ad agency. Henry went back to California for the weekend to spend time with his family, and then there's Carl.

Thunderstorms always make me want to call him so he can tell me about the fires, those moments I tried to mimic with him after we met again in the Gauloise haze. I'll climb into bed naked, get under the cold covers and listen to his voice like music in the dark. Sometimes I fall asleep and when I wake up again he's still there on the other end of the line.







39 comments:

  1. Why not pour some wine in glass and enjoy the solitude darling?

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  2. it sounds like you and Carl are meant to be together. i wish the best for you guys.

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  3. Thunderstorm brings back memories ... but we all got to cope with them !!!

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  5. love this
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  6. Sometimes though, we need to be alone with our thoughts.

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  7. sometimes solitude gives me more comfort than being in another person's company.

    hugs to you. lovely words and photos, as always <3

    inspiration from the little things

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  8. i am very much in love with your writing x

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  9. sometimes being all by yourself is better.

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  15. I like the way you write, and these photos are really beautiful!
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  27. i love these short stories.... keep them coming~

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  29. So lovely, love the pictures too x

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  33. Your blog is so honest and poetic! I like it!

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  34. Thanks for the comment :) Love your photographs!.. x

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  35. Your words stole my heart. My heart always gets stolen by desperate poetry, embellished reality and raw, unintentional emotions. Fragments of my heart, they are everywhere. And a little piece of my heart will stay here with your words and your thoughts. I guess it's a fancy way to say that I am now following your blog.

    Anyway, I fell in love when I was 14. With a boy who moved to my school. I knew even then that although my fragile heart will always be somewhere else, he will always be the one thing that remains to hold me together. In other words, he is my heart. For I have no real heart anymore. 10 years later, I am still very much in love with this boy. And like him, the man that you know, this boy often visits me in the coldest nights. Albeit only in my head. And the hollow space that once hold my actual heart.

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