Thursday, September 13, 2012

How does it feel?

Oh, my birthday. Carl would always call me when we were little, and then, suddenly, he didn't. He was there with me the year before, in our summer house, we took a long walk in the middle of the night and it was getting colder. We found another house, abandoned and sad in the middle of a meadow. "Come with me inside and I'll let you kiss me", I said, and I wish I hadn't.

We lost six years together, six birthdays with a silent telephone and the memories. He would call me flower and ask me how my day was. After the Gauloise haze, everything else went back to normal but he just called me by my name, and I called him Carl. Someone burned down that abandoned house the following winter.

When I woke up this Monday morning Chloe had left a present on my bed, an adorable little Juicy Couture necklace. Later I got a phone call, it was Carl. "Happy birthday my flower", he said.






42 comments:

  1. lovely as always!
    and happy birthday honey!!

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  2. Happy bday sweety!! Love your blog!!

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  3. Beautiful. And a belated Happy Birthday to you.

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  4. I love your writing style!
    I hope you had a great
    birthday c:

    xx

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  5. happy b-day!
    love your writing(:

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  6. Happy birth-day dear!
    I'm happy you and Carl found each other, and he's calling you "flower" again.

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  7. Happy birthday,
     Lovely text, loved your blog.
    kisses

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  8. Wishing you a very happy birthday and what a lovely surprise to get that phone call x

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  9. HAppy birthday!
    I have my birthday tommorow :)

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  10. Happy birthday darling.
    Im glad Carl called.

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  11. the conclusion is that he still thinks of you as his flower... and it is always the best when phone rings and you hear that familiar voice wishing you all the best... even if it is not totaly true...
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  12. you must have felt shivers when carl called you flower and wished you happy birthday and and a necklace from juicy c.
    -sounds like a rad birthday to me

    p.s. happy birthday luv.

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  13. Happy Birthday Mademoiselle Standford!

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  14. You have no idea how happy I am for you. For I know what it's like to lose people even when they're right there in front of you. I'm glad, very glad that you got him back in some way. I still have some people who I wish to get back, as before, but I guess I cannot. But I'm happy for you. :)

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  15. Happy birthday and be happy always dear!

    xx!

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  16. Happy Birthday to you ... and am glad for that phone call !!!

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  17. This was beautiful. I'm so happy for you.

    Happy Birthday, flower. :)

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  18. lovely writings.. liked them all.. and am sure you had a very happy birthday.. :D

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  19. You're writing is so sad and beautiful at the same time, I hope you had a really great birthday :)

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  20. happy birthday dear! <3 i'm glad for you that carl called :)

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  21. happy birthday <3 the pictures are very nice :)) your blog is very lovely and interesting. maybe follow? im glad if you visit my blog, too <3 keep in touch!

    xx
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  22. Happy birthday to the modern fairytale heroine in the penthouse suite of the dark, magical tower. Joseph Campbell says that the hero's journey is often to actualize the future by transcending the past. That's why I find this protagonist's story so compelling. :)

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  23. It looks awesome :)
    Terribly I like your blog!

    xoxo

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  24. It looks awesome :)
    Terribly I like your blog!

    xoxo

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  25. These are beautiful photos!



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  26. Your writing style is amazing, and photography. Wow.
    Thanks for the comment :)
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  27. Beautiful photograph, and the passage you wrote was so dreamy.

    Lindsey. x

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  28. Happy birthday! Also really impressed of your writing style.

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  29. Happy birthday!
    Nice blog you have...wanna follow each other?
    just leave me a comment and I'll follow u back!
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  30. nice pics mix ;)

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