Friday, May 18, 2012

Igniting the fire


He never told me about that train ride across Russia, my father. I didn't even know about it until I found mother's diary hidden away in the closet, and by then it was too late to ask. As a child, I always wanted to know things about him, and he would always take the time to tell me stories from his life, like little lullabies whenever I couldn't sleep at night.

There were sparks there, unspoken subtleties and traces of a broken man. I didn't see them back then of course, but years later they helped me puzzle the pieces together to understand him a little better. What worries me is the gaps, the elements he left out, and the more I think of it the more I worry. Why didn't he tell me, why could I never know what finally pushed him over that edge?

Chloe is consumed by the little mysteries, she knew my father too and wants to help me understand. She's promised me to find the lady in black, no matter what secrets it might uncover. When S came back on Wednesday she had other stories to tell, equally fascinating to a dreamer like Chloe. I won't share them just now, but I can tell you that after watching the Godfather triolgy last night we felt that even the greatest sagas sometimes just can't measure up to the absurdities of real life.





32 comments:

  1. I'm speechless!

    By your words and this simple look..

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  2. i hope you are able to figure out what happened, and i hope whatever it was brings you peace of mind, and maybe even a sense of closure.
    <3

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  3. dads tell the sweetest stories of themselves to their children when they're young.

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  4. I hate not being able to figure out things but I just remind myself nothig is as it seems
    If you have time listen to this song it helps me when I feel lost or confused x http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XYebrD66y1Q

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  5. I wish you knew more about your father. It must be harder than I realise...

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  6. I'm intrigued now!
    I hope you find out what happened to your dad :)
    Lottie x

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  7. Beautiful! :)

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  8. It is a peculiar thing when we get older.. seeing our parents differently, seeing the pieces of them within us and the things we still don't know about them

    xx

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  9. I totally agree on your comment about Godfather trilogy... :)
    btw can't wait for you to share other stories

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  10. you write magically. you make a very valid point we never really know everthing about our parents because we don't know about there past which intrigues me. Now i look at my parents in a new light

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  11. I love the way you write. Its so beautiful. Love your blog.

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  12. You are so talented. Your writing, your pictures... your blog is beautiful.

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  13. I often think those who are feeling that way do not tell others, they just smile and everyone thinks they're ok until it all gets too much. x

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  14. * Uhh, sigh :) *

    Beautiful photos.

    You know girls, I'm hooked. On your story as well as S's.

    Satu
    Indie by heart

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  15. My father has also done a train ride across Russia but I have never asked what was it like... Maybe I should

    Very well written, as always :)

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  16. so so cute! love it :)

    xx

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  17. amazing photography and beautiful story. x

    The WeekDays

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  18. Despite i adore Godfather trilogy too...you are so true!!

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  19. Geez lady. One sly little comment on my blog and here I am spending an entire Australian morning hitting your archives. I'm addicted.

    Keep writing, never stop.

    xo em

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  20. Great post!

    GTBB,
    Bad Joan
    http://badjoan.blogspot.com

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  21. I'm glad you are not writing just for money.

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  22. I started coming on to see the beautiful photographs you post and now I have ended up hooked on reading your beautiful stories!! http://coffeeringsanddoughnutstains.blogspot.com/

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    love pictures on your blog :) very nice layout. clean and charming. love your blog.

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  25. Oh my goodness those photos with the night scene are absolutely stunning <3
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  26. Love this post x

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