Friday, May 25, 2012

A cure for insomnia

Whenever I think of calling him I imagine myself telling him everything I've been suppressing and him listening carefully, silently, without breathing. And in the end, when we've said our goodbyes and hang up, all the things that matter are always left unsaid. It's the way we dance around the fires instead of putting them out when we have the chance.

Chloe understands without asking, maybe she's been there too. "Let's get high" she says, "I have opium".

Mother is out, I heard her talking to Frank earlier but when I asked she said she was going to see someone else. Chloe and I spend this evening by an open window, smoking, waiting for the sunset. When it gets dark we might go out, I feel the urge to be touched, to touch and to leave someone behind in an unmade bed before the sun comes back up. To walk home across Manhattan at dawn, wearing black and smelling like spring flowers after a fire.







48 comments:

  1. Reading your posts is like reading my favourite book. Love the way you're writing.

    Wonderful pictures for one more time.

    x,
    sparkle.

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  2. Oh yes, I know those imaginery calls myself. This urge to touch and be touched as well.

    Hugs,
    Emilia

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  3. I have those imaginery calls for myself.
    I absolutely love the way you write.
    x

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  4. There you go again Avy, telling everyones story. Lovely.

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  5. I have the same feelings. To just go, stay, leave.

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  6. i love the text and your photos!!
    xx

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  7. I've read this somewhere. When you feel like disappearing or leaving, all you really want from deep inside is to be asked to stay, to be found.

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  8. Beautiful photos!!

    xx alex

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  9. Beautiful photos!!
    !!!!!! I follow you! Would you like to follow me back?

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  10. Follow you right now :):)

    Are you the girl of the photos?

    Really really Awesome <3

    Kisses

    Iri xxx

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  11. SOOO BEAUTS :)

    xx

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  12. is worst when he listens carefully and then he says nothing...

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  13. Great post. I love these photos, really beautiful!

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  14. lovely photos!!


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    xx

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  16. Hello Avy! Your blog is very interesting! Thank you so Much for your comment! I followed you))

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  17. lovely!!!

    x0x0

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  18. Your posting, like all your postings, shows your exquisite sensitivity. But something's different this time.

    This time you write that you "feel the urge to be touched, to touch and to leave someone behind in an unmade bed before the sun comes back up." That sentence and your next one -- "To walk home across Manhattan at dawn, wearing black and smelling like spring flowers after a fire" -- are beautiful and sensual.

    Are the new and different sentences the effect of the opium? Or are they intended to make Carl jealous?

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  19. Why stop yourself from saying the most important things? If they're still unsaid when the conversation ends, call back.

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  20. Dear you're from ...? Usa?

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  21. SUPER LOVE YOUR BLOG <33
    i'm following you now :D
    mind to follow back? :)

    xx,
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  22. wowww you have such a nice blog!!
    i follow you, do you want to follow me back??
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  23. Very nice blog! I follow you! Would you like to follow me back? thanks

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  24. Great post,loved reading it. My cat thanks you :D -> ilaria

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  25. Very nice photos and interesting post honey!!!

    Hope you'll visit me, i will be really grateful :)
    Have a nice day, Elena

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  26. I liked the post, I can relate to.. Congratulations.

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  27. Nice shots! Thanks for visiting me.. I'm following you now :)

    XOXO!
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  28. your photos are lovely!
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  29. nice post :)

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  30. the last few sentences make me think you'd like today's post. ill come into your bed, but you'll get no name from me, no truth to see.

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  31. This photos are really creative and nice! Congratulations!
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    xoxo

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  32. thank you :)

    love the 2nd pic, aw :)
    bisous xxx

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  33. so interesting.I like the way you write it here!!
    and i love last pic.

    check out also my blog
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    kisses,
    xoxo

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  34. I find myself spending nights, lying awake dreaming about the unknown as well. One of my favourite things to do is smoke with my best friend while watching the world go by, it has such a tranquil aspect about it.

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  35. This is so different, really unique..

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  36. beautifull pics!
    following you!

    xxx
    meral

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  37. my english is bad.
    but i can leave some coment.

    your pic is beautifull.

    insomnia?
    is me.
    all the night..

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  38. I really like the photos. Really artistic work.

    Bisou from Vienna
    Catherine

    http://frlcatherine.com/

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