Monday, April 23, 2012

Starry starry night

Spending time with real people again is like waking up from a dream. Ever since S left a month ago I've been alone with my imagination and the smell of pastel colored spring flowers on the bedroom window ledges. It's not necessarily a good thing. With Chloe here I have someone to talk to, to model dresses for and to spend late nights on the balcony with, breathing in the damp Atlantic air to the sounds of a city that never sleeps.

Mother has gone back to Los Angeles "for a week or so", it usually means a month. Chloe and I spent the weekend on bars all over town, dressed up in black and lace and with seductive burgundy red lips saying it's okay to buy us drinks. It's almost too easy.

And just as we were about to go back home, somewhere below tall buildings with yellow cabs and ambulances rushing past us on Broadway, it hit me like a sledgehammer: the memory of how the sky would look during clear nights in the garden of our summer house. The memory of a million glittering stars, and my father calmly pointing out the various constellations as if on a map on the kitchen table. "We'll go there some day" he said and I trusted him. All I see on this light polluted city sky is clouds and airplanes, my feet are steadily on the ground in lustrous high heels. It's another sort of dream and I'll never be able to fly.







53 comments:

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  3. gorgeous photos, as usual. love the dress in the first one, it's so delicate and pretty!
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  6. there was a meteor shower last saturday. so my friends and i went out of the city and looked for a quiet dark place to see the stars. my friends claimed that they've seen more but to me, i've never seen so many beautiful stars in the sky. it made me wonder if i was dreaming. anyway, i was wondering if it was the same amount of stars that you saw with your dad too. who the heck knows.

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  26. I don't know why but you make me sad. You write beautifully but there is always melancholy in your voice. I can't imagine what your life is really like or what really brings you happiness, but I hope you find it inside yourself one day. Wishing things were different.
    Take care of your heart-
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