Friday, March 2, 2012

A wasteland, Dolores

I had that dream again, the one with the smoldering charcoal and a sky full of ravens. I think it's about Carl. Standing there alone in the smoke feels exactly like imagining him and Chloe in bed together, but the air is different this time. It doesn't smell of gasoline but of rain, the kind that revives the earth in March after a cold winter.

And I guess it's true. We're a wasteland apart and I never burned the ground behind me as I left, so how could it smell of anything other than wet soil and newborn flowers? It's a treacherous smell that I've always loved, I remember it vividly from those early spring days in the country house. He was there of course, all through the summer until it was time to go back home.

His blank face on that last night scared me for so long, and I still sometimes wonder what hurt him the most. I asked Belle about it years later. "Being born is a death sentence", she said, "the rest is just silence". Every time I wake up from this dream I find myself just a little bit closer to understanding what she meant.

35 comments:

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  3. "being born is a death sentence, the rest is just silence' this will stick with me, a concept i'll let myself drift off into while day dreaming, i love it.
    Hindsight is 20/20 love, but no one said you can't go back and visit the past.
    I hope it all works out for you and you gain clarity.
    I love that smell you were describing as well, I'll leave my bedroom window open every night it rains in my city to listen to the sound, but mostly for the smell.
    So clean and fresh and shockingly comforting.
    love always,
    xoxo

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  4. Great picture :) Once again, I must say I love your writing style!

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  5. ''We're a wasteland apart.''

    I love this. Ah. Perfect.

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  7. Beautiful Witting. ... And what is it with all of These Carls These days

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  16. The world is beautiful for having blessed us with such beauty. Dreams.. make you realize the things you don't realize in reality.

    Love, always! :)

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  17. Re: Thank you!

    I really like your writing style.

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  30. This is amazing. You write so beautifully. I always struggle trying to write the right words.

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