Friday, March 16, 2012

There is no band

No word from S yet, I guess she's fine. The ones from Carl are still incarcerated in their envelope, a sort of quarantine for the unwanted I guess, a carefully suppressed memory when Chloe calls me from across the wasteland and breaks the spell. We're mostly quiet but knowing she's there is almost enough; her tiny heartbeats like butterfly wings echoing through the wires. I miss her more and more.

"He loves you" she whispers and it sounds like shattered illusions.  Il n'y a pas d'orchestre. I ask her about the letter, she says she doesn't know and I believe her. It's a night later and it sits right here in front of me, ready to be opened. I just had to write something first, and maybe I'll tell you about it later or tomorrow or some other day when I'm past the anguish.

Until then, know that I love all of you and that your reading, your commenting and following, your sending me sweet little e-mails and caring when I need it the most is the air I breathe when thunderstorms are outside my window. Thank you ♥


24 comments:

  1. Beautiful blog, so happy I found it. Lost of inspiration since we have similar styles.


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  2. I don't always understand these personal posts, though I'm guessing readers aren't supposed to be on everything here? Also these photos are incredible.

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  3. Nice blog posting. I'm just blogwalking and very interesting to stop here and read your post. I like this.

    But, dont forget to give us your comment into my blog ya.

    Thanks for share.

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  4. I like when I read those personal posts, because I feel closer with the person that wrote it!Hope that you'll find something to write on that letter...

    xx

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  5. Awwwwww...anytime,sweetie!:-)
    I LOVE reading you! Your words are so haunting!

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  6. I like not knowing what you are talking about, not knowing the situation. It keeps it so alive. Your writing here is beautiful as always.

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  7. I'm dying to know what's in that envelope!! Take your time though, don't let anyone pressure you to read it. I don't speak to my father either and on the off-chance he will leave me some literature I'm always diligent about proving that it remained un-opened. The little victories you can win, you know?
    Good thing Chloe came over, being alone with your mind swirling is never a good thing. Quiet company is a dream come true.
    I really hope things become... acceptable, soon.
    love always,
    xoxo

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  8. my favorite line today: ..."is almost enough; her tiny heartbeats like butterfly wings echoing through the wires"...

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  9. you have a wonderful and romantic way with words.

    thanks you for visiting.
    warm greetings!
    leyla.

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  10. Hello great blog please follow me back on trendberry.blogspot.com

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  11. You found love in a hopeless place, Avy! <3

    Damn damn damn happy for you! He loves you! <3

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  12. You are so very, very sensitive. And you have the soul of a poet.

    It's almost possible to believe you've read the letter. Just by running your fingers over the envelope.

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  13. oh! you know really love. You are a writer? you are so good. You should not just think about your lover, also in you! 1000 kisses!!!

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  14. <3

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  15. You have such an amazing blog! x

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  16. cool, cool, cool blog!
    Visit my blog and if you want we can follow each other via GFC!
    Have a great Sunday!

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  17. Hi dear,
    romantic post and super nice blog!

    What do you think abaut follow each other?!
    Let me know on my blog!! :) Then I will follow you back!!! ;) :)

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    xoxoxo, Francesca

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  18. I love your writing Avy!

    Warm big hugs from Bangkok

    xxx
    Hang

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  19. thanks fot comment.
    gorgeous fotos.
    New follower

    xoxo
    M.
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  20. What an amazing set of photos :)

    kiss

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  21. Definitely pretty, the way you write you almost-diary-like stories here and the pictures, they make me think of a very detailed version you see in your mind.

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