Monday, February 6, 2012

Nothing changes everything's the same

Someone must have told Carl about my giveaway. His casual attitude and the distant tone of his voice would have scared me if I thought he had read it himself. It's late when he calls, I can almost hear Chloe breathing in the background through traffic noise and telephone wires.

"How is she?" I ask, imagining her dancing barefoot on black marble floors. I'm not mad at her, she didn't know, I just wonder if she sits next to him by the fireplace like she did with me. "She's fine" he says, then tip-toes around the subject of the jacket. He wants me to keep it but won't say why, and maybe it would have mattered if he had found the right words but he doesn't, and now it's all too late.

So for those of you who have asked me if I'm serious: yes I am. I'm giving the jacket away, I want one of you to have it and I'm not going to change my mind. Take it or leave it.



  1. Don't hate me for saying this but you're probably at the best phase of your life,creativity-wise.I know it hurts,it hurts like anything!I've been in similar situations myself but you're such a gifted writer!Express your pain through your words and you won't even know when you'll fall in love with it and won't know how to live without it.Good luck! Love.

  2. I completely agree with what Soumi said, I have loved reading your blog <3

    Enter my giveaway?

  3. beautiful writing style. I love it!

    Happy Monday =)

  4. thanks for the comment love <3

  5. So pretty! As alwaysssss!

    PS. We've a DORIS giveaway on our blog! Check it out!

    ox from NYC!


  6. The way you're firm at something you once decide, BEST!

    Everything happens for a reason.. :)

  7. nice!

  8. I'm sorry but reading through your posts, I can feel that you're hurt and I can say you love him so much, but the pain is becoming unbearable,like everyday it hurts you even more.
    You are a beautiful person,it shows in the way you write. I hope you find peace inside. Stay strong,love.

  9. Have a SUPER week, Avy!

    Facebook: Harry Goaz


  10. Thanks for your comment on my blog.

    Reading your posts on here you seem like a lovely person but I can see that at the moment you are hurting. Stay strong because you can get through these horrible feelings and I know that you can find happiness.

  11. Hm, I guess you're right. But still, if you consider the year this book was published- and all the personalities we talk about now that were still alive back then. Or things and wars that had not taken place. I could talk hours but I'll spare you :P

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    xo Vivian

  13. nice blog dear! I really like the title of your blog! very crazy and just pretty cool! ;D

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    just if you like my blog 2.


  14. Thanks for your comment, but what did you mean? :D