Thursday, February 9, 2012

The first snow

This weekend S is coming to see me in New York along with a snowfall. They're both a welcome change. Mother is mostly out, I spend my days walking around the dark apartment in my nightgown or aimlessly wandering the streets alone, looking at people and fantasizing about their lives. I feel I could write a book about it.

And then I remember a late autumn years ago, we were about to leave the house for the winter and go back to the warmth and sunshine in Los Angeles. I was eleven, the forests surrounding us had just started to change color, it looked like a giant fire. My father was closing up, I was outside waiting by the car and suddenly there they were. First one, then a dozen then thousands and thousands of little snowflakes painting the trees and the ground in a sparkling white.

I remember how I wanted to be there with Carl. His parents had been screaming at us for what we had done to him the night before, Belle and I, and they left shortly afterwards. It was the last time I saw him before that night in the Gauloise haze, and nothing scared me more than the blank expression on his face. For years to come it was almost the only thing I could remember about him.


35 comments:

  1. I almost miss the snow this year, but I don't miss the cold.

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  2. I wish the snow which is just falling would let the world look like your second picture - beautiful! *_*

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  3. And I could write a book about you. All I need for it actually is to meet you in person. I would really write a book! Yes, you're that AVYous! :)

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  4. Those pics are beautiful. I wish I had memories that were so lovely. Pained, but lovely. Keep your chin up, love. Better things must be coming. They MUST be.

    I hope I'm not too late, but I would LOVE to get your jacket. Here's a link:
    http://flowersxofxevil.blogspot.com/2012/02/wow.html

    Hope you like. ;)
    Stay strong, babe.

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  5. OMG!That was beautiful!Both the words and the pictures.You know what's the first thing that comes to my mind when I think about you?Solitude!

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  6. Your memories are just so vivid, such a pleasure to read as always.

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  7. ur a sweetie- i mean i cant do art because i love art and it would be being nice to myself, which i cant allow xxx

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  8. ur a sweetie- i mean i cant do art because i love art and it would be being nice to myself, which i cant allow xxx

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  9. Enjoy the snow, to me it already has a couple of days and already we're quite a bit;)

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  10. o darling,
    I just love snow, recently I saw snow fall for the first time ans that was all serene

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  11. I love the way your words capture your memories, like you are sharing such a personal private part of yourself with us. I feel privileged.
    love always,
    xoxo

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  12. Thank you for responding to my post! :))) And your words are simply lovely. The pictures that accompany accent the memory you shared with us perfectly.
    xx-OceanicMelody73

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  13. Your writing has a spare, haunting beauty - similar to the images of snow.

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  14. Your writing is so powerful... I'm addicted! X

    CULT style

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  16. oh, i absolutely love the second photograph of this post! lovely tones and composition. (and i must say you have a great blog overall)

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  17. The last photograph is beautiful. I miss the snow this year. x

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  19. Such beautiful pictures yet complete opposites xx

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  20. hahhahahaha..... what a blog name... LOL
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  21. Lovely photos. How I wish I've seen snow.

    You're amazing at writing. You were able to convey a powerful message in only 3 paragraphs! You should write a book (Or twenty).

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  22. I adore people watching. It's intoxicating. It's so much more fun with a silent hazy friend and coffee. Much love to you.

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  23. So beautiful photos !

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  24. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH this is VERY beautiful✿

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  25. I love second photo! :)) It look like a fairytail... ;)

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  26. So nice to see the contrast between the two landscapes, gorgeous pictures! *

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