With her I lost not only a friend but also the last pieces of an innocent childhood. In a heartbeat everything was real and merciless and I knew I had to grow up. There is only so much time for you to decide which roads to take when you're standing there, and life doesn't wait.
After the rains in early February I went to his place for the first time. I had to change busses a couple of times, he had carefully written down instructions on a piece of paper I kept in my pocket. An hour or so later he picked me up at the last stop and we ended up on his balcony. It was one of those days when you don't really feel the temperature, even after sunset, so we just sat there talking, drinking wine, and forgot all about the time.
After midnight he said you can't go home now and I said I don't want to. Calmly and without saying a single word he undressed me right there under the black starless skies, his patient hands all over my shivering body.
Inside me: bubbles and butterflies, and him.